Lurking

I see you lurking
Underneath.
It’s the thief who stole
Pieces of me
And now you tell me
No don’t tell me.
I can see.

And you think I’ll crawl
Right back into your arms
To do it all again
No you won’t cause me harm.

How can you stand there
Next to me?
Trying to plead your case
You want me to believe
That you saved me
From your failings
Can’t I see

And you think I’ll crawl
Right back into your arms
To do it all again
No you won’t cause me harm.

Salary Man

I wish you loved me the way you love work.
I’m screaming out home alone
But for you dinners served
Salary
For late hours
Weekend too.
Seems like your vows is with them
Instead of me and you.

And I know why you think
You’ve got money to blow.
No matter how much you grind
With salary it’s a no no.
That’s why I beg and plead
That you spend your time with me
But I was already single
Before I closed the door and tossed key.

DINK

You say you missed the way I used to smile
At you, from time to time.
Twas love.
My love.
Twas my love for us.

And now you say you don’t miss anything no more.
Well I just can’t agree.
I miss that DINK pedigree.
That double income no kids.
Showing how rich aunties live.
When they’re attached.
No looking back.
But I’m still giving eccentric auntie vibes.
‘Cept now I get to move how I like.
No looking back.
SINK still stacked.
And now I got my own track

It’s funny you think my relationships
Are retaliation to what you give.
It’s love
My love
It’s my love of trust
Just not us.

And now you say you don’t miss anything no more.
Well I just can’t agree.
I miss that DINK pedigree.
That double income no kids.
Showing how rich aunties live.
When they’re attached.
No looking back.
But I’m still giving eccentric auntie vibes.
‘Cept now I get to move how I like.
No looking back.
SINK still stacked.
And now I got my own track

How I wanna be loved

Love me like the one who got away
And you’re proving yourself everyday.
Love me like the A you got in 9th grade
When you found out this would be on your transcript.
It started you off to your 4.0 gpa.
Try to maintain me like you did that A.
Love me like your favorite dish you get on your birthday.
Look forward to me with wild surprise when I come your way.
Love me like the first record, cd, cassette or download with your own money it was paid.
Learn me like the lyrics you looked up, practiced and sang.
Yeah, love me like that.
Like Lenny loved Midge,
So much that the thought of my failure makes you weep,
Like the Black community loves the Black Panther
Africa, vibranium and Wakanda kinda things.
Yeah… Love me like that.
Like Alicia Keys loves BB cream instead of full coverage foundation,
Like we all like to be petty when discussing the other generations.
Love me when I’m going high but inside you know I’m going low,
Like I’m your first Uber eats stop
And I’ve included the gate code.
Love me like a millennial,
Because we are therapized and in touch with our sensitive and screw this system vibe.
Just love me like I want to be loved
Instead of the way you did your ex.
Know my love language
So we can love each other best.
Yeah… Love me like that.

What You Talking?!

It don’t take my body
To show a whole lotta things
But they talking bout
They still wanna see.
On one hand they say they want substance
And conversation
But they keep asking
If I’mma big ole freak.
Like boy please find a man
And navigate him straight to to me.
Ion care about the pronouns
Or the style of the dress
Don’t even care bout the gender ID.
I’m looking for the soul to match my purpose
Over and over till we focused
It can be 1, 2, or 3.
I’ll learn her mind
Vibrate where they soul at.
Unconditionally, I love them all like that.
I see your body,
But let me work your whole brainmap
And this can only work
If you meet the challenge right back.
And I know my physical form
Won’t do you harm.
You say if you got it then I got it,
Now get on your arm.
Respectfully,
You step to me
Push them aside when you hear me say:
It don’t take my body
To show a whole lotta things
But they talking bout
They still wanna see.
Ha ha

It’on’t take my body
T’show a whole lotta things
But they talking bout
They still wanna see.

Feelings for Flesh

I don’t know how many poems, stories, odes and letters I must write to you to prove my love.
Like the ones who’ve touched you,
Those who’ve held you
And the ones you’ve held,
I think my love will cure you.
I craft my soul, my brain and every aspect of my life around you.
I want to make you better.
I want you to be the paradigm and epitome of health.
I want you to be the perfect reflection of me,
I want you.
Some days… Most days…
I want you to be enough.
I don’t even expect you to be beautiful.
I just want you functionally healthy.
I just want you safe.
I just want you whole.
I just want you.
I’ve promised to never harm you again,
And I viciously destroy anything that does.
But after so many surgeries
So much chemo
So much radiation
So many allergies
So much autoimmune
You’re not sure if it’s you I’m fighting for.
You call our soul selfish
And our brain an accomplice.
But we think we are an us.
I try to not speak ill of you
Even when you are.
I try manifesting your health
On days you can’t summon the strength
To move yourself.
Through all of these things,
I still want you.
I still need you.
I am still you.
And I’m not done fighting for us yet.

Our Thing

This was a thing

A warm thing.
A loving thing.
A thing I’ll never forget.
Yep…
This was our thing

The hero at home

Very few see the hero at home.
When they’re going through depression
Anxiety, over all that’s going wrong.
They only see the bravery the hero presents to the arena.
They don’t know them outside of social media.
The hero cries.
The hero has insomnia.
The hero medicates.
When no one’s around though.
Except, heroes don’t live alone.
They have roommates,
Partners, parents and children.
Siblings, friends and other family to deal with.
These are the ones,
Hopefully the hero can be whole beyond the myth.

But when they can’t,
who is this superhuman?

Well, they’re not human at all.
A creation forged in legends.
A figment bound to fall.
And no one will see it coming,
Because they never cared to know.
The hero had been breaking for a while,
If only they’d looked beneath the cloak.

We Grow

As a people, we grow.
As a nation, now that we know
We grow.
Into the world, newly informed.
Brought together
When the world tried to harm.
For all that we worked on
The things we didn’t know.
And if we find new ignorance
We won’t hide,
We grow

A Part or Apart

A part of me has been
Apart from you for so long
I’ve forgotten the good.
I’m ok with that.
Because the whole of me
Had been all of us for so long.
I couldn’t see the bad.
I guess you were right.
I’m an all or nothing person.
I want all of me
Or nothing else matters.
A part or apart.